Character(s): Storm, Icarus, Psylocke, Genome, Siryn, Chamber, Professor X, Havok, Wolfsbane, Nicholas Archer.
Slow or Away: Potentially slow.
Lasts Until: Unknown.
So, I debated putting this up at all since I doubt my actual time on the site will go down - if anything, it may go up since I'm determinedly looking for a distraction from my own thoughts - but I figured that I will probably seem odd/off/grumpy/moodly/un-Lell-esque for a while so, rather than upsetting people or having to explain myself several times, here it is. One of my old friends, someone of whom I was very fond, committed suicide yesterday. The details of her death or why she did what she did are unknown. And the more I let myself think about it, the worse it is.
So, thank you, for being as sympathetic and supportive as I know you lovely people will automatically be, but you know how someone being nice to you in hard times sometimes makes it worse? Yeah. That's me all over. So I would really appreciate it if we just...didn't talk about this. I also apologise in advance for being twitchy or bitchy or just erratic in general in both personality and activity. Like I said, I'm planning on losing myself in headspace that isn't me and...yeah. That's it. I don't want this to be hugely dramatic and I'll do my best to keep up with my responsibilities for the site. I just figured that honesty is the best policy and talking transparently about it once was better than everyone wondering why Lell suddenly got mean and antsy.
Thank you for reading.