So, I'm already bogged down and not posting enough because of school. On top of that, my mom went into the hospital again Thursday. She has a Fistula connecting her small intestine to her vaginal canal.. Which means she has a high risk of infections and she's having a hard time keeping food down. Because of this high risk of infections, she can no longer receive Chemo. I guess there is a surgery that can be done to repair the area that Fistula is effecting, but it is complicated and very high risk. Her regular Oncologist doesn't think it is worth it, but the doctor she talked to for a second opinion is willing to preform the surgery. It's possible that she will die on the table. Even if she doesn't, it's still possible she'll die during recovery. The Radiation she had to her abdomen makes recovery even harder because she may not be able to heal as quickly as a normal person. Even if she does heal at a normal rate, she may not heal all the way or the Fistula may form again. The family is unanimous in the opinion that she should at least try the surgery.. because to not try is a death sentence. More than that, it's a painful, drawn out death that she shouldn't have to go through. She hasn't told us her decision yet and she still wants to talk to her sisters and brothers, but it sounds like she'd rather go out fighting than suffering. So there's a lot weighing on me right now and trying to dig my muse up from it is more than I can take right now. If inspiration strikes, I'll post, but for the most part... Don't expect much activity from me for a while. I WILL come back... just.. Life is in the way right now.