off..my..HEAD

Nathan||John||Gilford

+The name is Nathan Gilford+
+but you can call me Nate+
+17 tricks up my sleeve+
+I kiss them boys, and them girls+
+I'm Head Boy, baby+

there's a flaming red horizon that screams our names||kindred spirits
the moonlight and the music overthrew you||practically family
I feel afraid and I call your name||partners in crime
I love your voice and your dance insane||best buddies
We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals
Oh drink a bit of wine we both might go tomorrow||drinking buddy
And she weeps on my arm||shoulder to cry on
When I think more than I want to think||enemy turned friend
It's a song about a dream||average friend

I am the tragedy
And the heroine
I am lost And I am rescuing
The storm is come
And I am following
My name is Tristan
And I am alive

Got my red glitter coffin, man, just need one last nail ||arch nemesis
The pictures go wild in a rush of wind||rivalry
Send whips of opinion down my back, give me more||hatred
There's no time for hatred, only questions||dislike
Much too blind to see the damage he's done||annoyance
I hate to feel the love between us die||friend turned enemy
Well maybe i'm just too young|jealousy
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind||two faced

Forever young
I come from God knows where
'Cos now I’m here
Without a hope or care
I am trouble
And I am troubled too
My name is Tristan
And I am alive

blow your kiss hello to life eternal, angel||the big 'I Do'
My fading voice sings of love||long term relationship
she broke your throne and she cut your hair||past relationship[good/bad]
I love you, but i'm afraid to love you||relationship
Touch my skin to keep me whole||lovers
So easy to know and forget with this kiss||fling
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation||friends with benefits
Was hypnotized by a strange delight||crush (specify)
Remember when I moved in you||lust

Sorrow by name
And sorrow by nature
Working for joy
On overtime
Stuck on a line
Of misadventure
I fear no crime

I'm blind and tortured, the white horses flow||parents
Why can't we overcome this wall||sister
dream asleep in the sand with the ocean washing over||class mate
It makes me see what I want to see||room mate
Don't be like the one who made me so old||study buddy
You gave me more to live for||teacher
But you don't really care for music, do ya?||name basis
That dark angel he is shuffling in||don't know you yet

I am the victim
And the murderer
You speak of love
But I’ve never heard of her
I am fucked
And I am fucking too
My name is Tristan
And I am alive

Layout credit to me
Song lyrics credit to Patrick Wolf
Relationship lyrics credit to Jeff Buckley
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||My Little Black Book||

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Presenting Evan Avery Gilmore
To me they are || We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation||friends with benefits
Was hypnotized by a strange delight||crush (Evan on Nathan)
Remember when I moved in you||lust

What they think of me || Nathan Gilford: the vain of my existence and the sunshine in my day all in one fell swoop. This guy has more mixed signals than a drunk traffic cop. Or maybe I'm just reading them all wrong. Basically, I fell for Nathan the day I met him, which was just in a quick exchange of words when he came over to say hey to a few people I'd just met earlier in the year. That was our introduction, and since he's so social and so am I, whenever we saw each other around we'd stop and talk and get to know each other better. Then one night, we slept together, and call me a moron but I thought it meant something. It didn't, not to him anyway. After that I was kind of crushed by it, and I swore to myself to stay away from him...That's not really what happened though. One night he just showed up at my door, and I don't know, he's better with words than I am at resisting them. Sex has become sort of a regular thing in our routine now, and it seems like it's all he wants. But every time he shows up at my door or invites me back to his room, I always somehow kid myself into thinking that it seems like 'this time' will be different. It never is, but hey...maybe one time it will be. Damn, that's how I get caught up in it: I'm too hopeful. I mean, the sex is good, but I've never really had a 'beneficial friend' or whatever it's called. See? I don't even know what the right term is! I don't even want one of those, that's not the kind of guy I am but...I don't know."

What I think of them || "Ahhhh my lil Evan! I have known him for a while 'cause we both roll in the same group. After a while he became my next 'victim'. He is a sweetheart and good in bed so he has become somewhat of a regular for me when I stay in the boys camp. I think he is thinking more of what is between us but it keeps him in my bed. A bit of sweet talk keeps him happy. I don't want to hurt him though because I kinda have feelings for him



Presenting{lewis montague}
To me they are ||
We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals

What they think of me || "I knew him from seeing him around, and from his reputation around school but I hadn't really spoken to him until fourth year. since then we have helped each other out a bit here and there and we cut deals with each other. Plus he is head boy now so I have to respect him don't I? Hahaha, no, I mean I know he was once one of those emo kids and we don't like them much by principle but this guy is alright. He is a good guy"

What I think of them || "Well I have known Lewis by name for a few years having shared a few classes with him here and there. We are both very buisness minded so I suppose we just understand certain things about each other. Now that I am head boy and he is rich kid boss we have more of a professional relationship aswell and we have become rather close. It is one of those 'you scratch my back, I scratch your's sort of relationships"


PresentingEugene Jones
To me they are || It's a song about a dream||average friend
to....
We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals


What they think of me || "Sure I know Niko's big bro. Psh, who doesn't right? I must say, his pretty intimidating when it comes to the big brother deal, but it's good to know that he doesn't see me as a threat, yeah? I don't really mind him using me in his little...gay and bi awareness campaign at school, it's cool. So long as I reap the perks for being his friend right? Haha, well that just sounded plain shallow of me, but what can I say?! He knows I'm only teasing when I try to take advantage of his position. At least I hope he does....What did you expect me to say? "This is Nathan, he's a great guy..." No thanks, not meaning that he isn't. Right, I'm rambling now...Done.

What I think of them || "Well I don't know him too well to be honest. He seems to be good friends with Nik though so he has my respect as far as that goes. also, because I have been making it my mission as head boy this year to raise awareness and acceptance of peoples sexualities and stuff I tend to be nice towards him cause he goes that way, haha, yeah well I'm not saying I give special treatments to the gays and bis of the school but ya know, it happens."



Presenting{Nikolas Gilford}
To me they are ||
I love your voice and your dance insane||best buddies
Why can't we overcome this wall||sister brother


What they think of me || Nathan’s a guy I’ve known for my entire life. He’s always been around and I don’t think there’s any chance I’ll ever be able to get rid of him. Kind of hard to do, actually, all things considered. He IS my big brother! Actually, there’s a lot about Nate that I love and it’s not only because he’s my family and I’m sort of obligated to love him. Nope, he’s a great friend too and I know that he’s always in my corner anytime that I need him. There’s really nothing he won’t do for me and there’s nothing I won’t do for him. I trust him with my life and I trust him with all my secrets. Even if it does take me a little while to actually get to telling him what they are. He supports me in whatever I want to do and really, you couldn’t ask for a better big brother than him. I consider myself lucky to have him in my life. I love my brother …. Can’t you tell?

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Presenting Lucas Gilford
To me they are || I feel afraid and I call your name||partners in crime
Why can't we overcome this wall||sister brother

What they think of me || "Awww... I love my big brother more than you can ever imagine. Nate is my idol, and he always will be. Ever since I was little, Nathan has been looking out for me, and it's something I appreciate more than he will ever know. Nate has shown me a lot, he taught me how to tie my show laces, how to count and how to speak even. Yep, he is someone that I am grateful to have as an older brother. I trust my older brother with my life, and I always will. He is the first person I go to if I need someone to talk to, seeing that he will give me the best advice possible and I try and help him out also. If he wants me to help him with his school work, I will. Also, he stands up for me when people are picking on me, and it means a lot. Honestly I couldn't of asked for a better big brother than Nathan."

What I think of them || "Luke is one half of my little brother twin set, and ever since I knew what it was to be a big brother I have been loving every moment of it. Apparently when they first came on the scene I was jealous, but I was just a baby myself really. It didn't take long before I was always playing with them, wanting to hug them and teach them things. Once I got older I could see the difference between both of them and knew that each had to be treated differently. With Nik it's just a case of leaving him be because he has the confidence that I had but Luke is different. With Luke I have tried to be a guidance for him and I have always been really protective over him. I rememeber to this day how proud I was when I first taught him how to tie his shoe laces and he got it right. That feeling has never left me, I've always been that proud and he never lets me down on that. He is a star, they both are and they are the center of my world, which is why I got the tattoo for them."

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Presentingsapphire jacobs
To me they are || I feel afraid and I call your name||partners in crime
I love your voice and your dance insane||best buddies
she broke your throne and she cut your hair||past relationship[good]
the moonlight and the music overthrew you||practically family

What they think of me || “Aw natey poo is smexface. Ilubhimtopieces. Anyway, in English and all. It started forever ago, when I met him and we became friends … cause hello how can you not be friends with him? and then we were more than friends, which was fun. But my natey face has a problem that sort of meant we couldn’t really date after a while. I’m greatful for the fact that he talked to me about it though, cause if he’d just cheated on me or something then I’d have had to kill him and then I’d have whole load of mess to clean up … now where is the fun in that? Anyway, I get that he can’t be tied down and honestly, it makes perfect sense to me. I was never heartbroken when we broke up because we didn’t go from spending loads of time together to never seeing each other or anything. It was a mutual thing and it was all on good terms. We’re still Nate and me … us against the world and I love him to pieces forever. He’s my bffle and nothing could really change that.”

What I think of them || "Where to begin! Geez, right well a long time ago we got to know each other, became friendly then became more than friendly if you knw what I mean. I really liked her and thought I would maybe give a relationship a try because, well shes worth it ain't she? Things were really good but the urge to sleep around was so high I just couldn't handle being tied down like this, which was a shame because I really liked her. Anyhow, long story short, we talked for like, a whole night and she is one of the few people who knows and understands my problem (a little thing called sex addiction but shhhhh). We ended on good terms and since then she has become my bestest best friend in the whole wide world ever. She is the only on who fully understands me and I love her to bits."





PresentingBlaire Grant
To me they are ||
We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals
Remember when I moved in you||lust
So easy to know and forget with this kiss||fling


What they think of me || Nathan is pretty hot. Okay, VERY hot. He's a great kisser too! We have fun..well,had. We..flirted loads and then I guess one thing led to another and now I just do my best to be as far away from him as possible. I probably should explain..but hey. I'm stubborn.

What I think of them || Blair is a super cute girl, I like her alot she is funny. We have known each other for a while now through mutual friends. She is hot so of course I flirt with her and we had a night a while back. Recently she has been a bit funny with me, I'm not sure why. Some people tend to get a bit cold when they hear about me being with other people so she could just be another one of those. It would be a shame though, she was a great kisser!"




Presenting{imogen yates}
To me they are ||
Oh drink a bit of wine we both might go tomorrow||drinking buddy
There's no time for hatred, only questions||dislike
Remember when I moved in you||lust

What they think of me || "Sigh, well yes I know Nathan. He is alright and he is good looking and all that, but....still. I've known him through friends and seen him out atparties and gigs and stuff. At first I just thought he was a cute emo guy from Gordon's but he did turn out to be a bit of a slut. I'm not too fussed with sluts but when it comes to him he just takes it too far. Too far as in doing the slutty thing with MY best friend. Evan Gilmore is my bestest guy friend and I'm super protective and I don't like how hung up Nathan has made Evan about him. Evan needs to be careful because I can see heartache on the horizon"

What I think of them || "Imogen, yeah shes cute. I've seen her around and we share some of the same friends. She is Evan's best friend or something which could be why she gives me dirty looks when I'm anywhere near him and she sees it. I think she thinks I'm going to hate him but...well he knows it's just about sex. Cause...you know...it totally is....I mean I don't have feelings for him or anything....whatever. She is nice but she doesn't soeak to me much nowadays."




PresentingDelilah Summers
To me they are ||
Oh drink a bit of wine we both might go tomorrow||drinking buddy
We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals
What they think of me || "Oh Nathan dahling. he is truely one of my best guy friends almost. He makes me laugh so hard an dhe compliments my photography. Hey, he's a sweet kid; and well he is nice. I see him when we go to LDN and on the train with Kitty. I met him through Kitty I guess I should say. He's nice and I love him like that. We party hard and get drunk, thankfully i count on him."

What I think of them || "I kinda remember Delilah from before school days, she has hung around my lil Camden town once or twice before and I had seen her at gigs. Since being at Gordon's whenever I go home to London Kitty is usually on the train with me and sometimes Delilah is there too. We have become friends and we party a lot. she is a cool girl and I love her photography. Hopefully we will all be going on a trip back down to LDN some time soon and we can have a right laugh on the train home!!"



PresentingTrinity Lynn
To me they are ||
We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals
And she weeps on my arm||shoulder to cry on
the moonlight and the music overthrew you||practically family


What they think of me || "Okay I can seriously say, that Nathan Gilford, is seriously one of my bestest male friends. He is the one who kind is really nice no matter what. I met him deffinetly through my brother whom I love. Since then I hang with him and Sapphire. Then there is the fact he was the one who sort of hmm, how should I say this, put me an Andy together in a strange way. Well, he is a great friend and I know I can count on him."

What I think of them || "Trinity? Yeah bless her, I know her pretty well. I got to know her cause i was talking to Seb about how my younger siblings were twins aswell and then he introduced me to her. She is super nice and we have a good life. I also got her and my lil Andy Pandy together because I thought he needed a bit of loving haha, anyways they hit it off but they aren't together anymore which is a shame!!"



PresentingClaudia Cristansen
To me they are || It's a song about a dream||average friend


What they think of me || "So, Nathan is like another friend of a friend of mine. I don't know him that well (although I'm sure everyone in the school knows of him), but I'd like to know him better. He's cute, even with the whole manwhore reputation, but I don't really mind. I'd love to see him more; I think he'd be fun to tease. Sometimes we do see each other at parties and stuff cause I do know some of his friends, but we're really not that close.

What I think of them || "I know Dia reasonably well. she is a cool girl and when I do see her and talk to her she is always nice and seems like a great person. Like a lot of people though I know her but not properl, ya know? It would be nice to just have a conversation and learn a bit more, right now though she is still a mystery!"

Presenting Evan Avery Gilmore
To me they are || We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation||friends with benefits
Was hypnotized by a strange delight||crush (Evan on Nathan)
Remember when I moved in you||lust

What they think of me || Nathan Gilford: the vain of my existence and the sunshine in my day all in one fell swoop. This guy has more mixed signals than a drunk traffic cop. Or maybe I'm just reading them all wrong. Basically, I fell for Nathan the day I met him, which was just in a quick exchange of words when he came over to say hey to a few people I'd just met earlier in the year. That was our introduction, and since he's so social and so am I, whenever we saw each other around we'd stop and talk and get to know each other better. Then one night, we slept together, and call me a moron but I thought it meant something. It didn't, not to him anyway. After that I was kind of crushed by it, and I swore to myself to stay away from him...That's not really what happened though. One night he just showed up at my door, and I don't know, he's better with words than I am at resisting them. Sex has become sort of a regular thing in our routine now, and it seems like it's all he wants. But every time he shows up at my door or invites me back to his room, I always somehow kid myself into thinking that it seems like 'this time' will be different. It never is, but hey...maybe one time it will be. Damn, that's how I get caught up in it: I'm too hopeful. I mean, the sex is good, but I've never really had a 'beneficial friend' or whatever it's called. See? I don't even know what the right term is! I don't even want one of those, that's not the kind of guy I am but...I don't know."

What I think of them || "Ahhhh my lil Evan! I have known him for a while 'cause we both roll in the same group. After a while he became my next 'victim'. He is a sweetheart and good in bed so he has become somewhat of a regular for me when I stay in the boys camp. I think he is thinking more of what is between us but it keeps him in my bed. A bit of sweet talk keeps him happy. I don't want to hurt him though because I kinda have feelings for him

Presenting{aubrey kesler}
To me they are ||
I feel afraid and I call your name||partners in crime
I love your voice and your dance insane||best buddies
Oh drink a bit of wine we both might go tomorrow||drinking buddy
And she weeps on my arm||shoulder to cry on


What they think of me ||
"Nateeee. What is there to say about him? One fact is that he is a hornball and likes to sleep around. Secondly, he's a dick and I hate him. Haha, nahhhh I'm kidding. The first two are true, but I love him lots. He's like one of my best friends and I love him more than anything. I think I'm the one girl he hasn't tried anything on because I won't let him and if it did happen I don't think I could ever forgive myslef. Ew, it would just be wrong. I look up to him as an older brother, since I've never had one. I have to admit, he's one hot piece of shit and I [I]used to have a major crush on him, but now I think friendship's better for the two of us. Er I can't remember how I met him, prolly walked in to him or something. Pft, swearing at him in Russian's pretty fun, not to mention drunken nights together. Classic."
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Presenting{charlotte suiter}
To me they are ||
But you don't really care for music, do ya?||name basis

What they think of me ||
"Nathan's reputation is definitely not a secret. I know he's the head boy at Robert Gordon's, but I'd heard of him before via Evan and Belle. I'm honestly not quite sure how I feel about him. He doesn't seem like the type who would bother giving me the time of day-- but then I don't think I really deserve anyone's time of day. i don't know, I've only talked to him a couple times via AIM, and I can't really make a judgment until I meet him in person.

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Presentingsapphire jacobs
To me they are || I feel afraid and I call your name||partners in crime
I love your voice and your dance insane||best buddies
past relationship
practically family

What they think of me || “Aw natey poo is smexface. Ilubhimtopieces. Anyway, in English and all. It started forever ago, when I met him and we became friends … cause hello how can you not be friends with him? and then we were more than friends, which was fun. But my natey face has a problem that sort of meant we couldn’t really date after a while. I’m greatful for the fact that he talked to me about it though, cause if he’d just cheated on me or something then I’d have had to kill him and then I’d have whole load of mess to clean up … now where is the fun in that? Anyway, I get that he can’t be tied down and honestly, it makes perfect sense to me. I was never heartbroken when we broke up because we didn’t go from spending loads of time together to never seeing each other or anything. It was a mutual thing and it was all on good terms. We’re still Nate and me … us against the world and I love him to pieces forever. He’s my bffle and nothing could really change that.”

What I think of them || "Where to begin! Geez, right well a long time ago we got to know each other, became friendly then became more than friendly if you knw what I mean. I really liked her and thought I would maybe give a relationship a try because, well shes worth it ain't she? Things were really good but the urge to sleep around was so high I just couldn't handle being tied down like this, which was a shame because I really liked her. Anyhow, long story short, we talked for like, a whole night and she is one of the few people who knows and understands my problem (a little thing called sex addiction but shhhhh). We ended on good terms and since then she has become my bestest best friend in the whole wide world ever. She is the only on who fully understands me and I love her to bits."

Presenting{Hattie James}
To me they are ||
We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals


What they think of me ||
"Nate...right where do I begin? He's fucking hot for sure and pft, he bloody well knows that. I would say that we're pretty close friends, and I mainly know him through Saphire since they used to go out and now their like the bestest friends and shizz, but yeah I don't think I would ever go out with him though because that would be betraying Saphire and well I would never do that. Er I do like hanging out with him though because he's pretty cool, and I see him alot since I like to party and so does he and pft yeah. He's wicked though and just maybe...secretly down deep...I would love to fuck him."


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Presenting{Natalie Davidson}
To me they are || Oh drink a bit of wine we both might go tomorrow||drinking buddy
So easy to know and forget with this kiss||fling

What they think of me || nate is a cool dude. it's not like we're really close or anything, but we go to parties and drink and stuff. we slept in the same bed one night, we were both drunk, and somehow i lost my virginity to him. i don't want to have a kid, though, my parents would kill me. but he's still cool.


What I think of them || well i had seen natalie going about at a few parties and stuff, as is how i meet most people. she seemed cool enough and i remember sitting with her while i was consuming the contents of a bottle of jaegermeister, and she was telling me all about surfing and stuff and i told her our pe teacher was a surfer....well one thing led to another and i ended up sleeping with the chick. unfortunately i don't remember too much of it cause i was pretty drunk but it was good. i think she mentioned it was her first time which is shame on me really....i really should stop deflowering virgins its giving me a reputation! shes cool though, hopefully i will see her around again some time, she has my number so yeah, we will see what happens"

Presenting{Kitty Steward}
To me they are || {relationships here}
I love your voice and your dance insane||best buddies
So easy to know and forget with this kiss||fling
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation||friends with benefits

What they think of me ||
"I know Nate from wayyyyy back. I knew him when I was living in Kingston and he stayed up in Camden, a place I used to go alot when I was skiving off school. Haha good times. Eh but yeah I never spoke to him much 'till I came over to St Albyn's and I saw him at gigs and parties and shizz. We got texting and IMing eachother and in the end we used to get the train back to London when we go home. He's a pretty cool kid. He's a pretty good shag from time to time, obviously when we're both drunk. I like makeing out with him at parties and stuff, its all for a laugh and we're not fuck buddies, but close friends, so pft."


What I think of them || "yeah, I have known her for quite a few years now, just through going to gigs and seeing her at parties and stuff. We have become close after a while of texting and IM chats and all that and yeah....we are sound now. A fellow Londoner we often catch the train together to and from home when there are holidays and stuff and we have mutual friends back home in LDN. She is good for a shag every now and then when we are both in the mood and we make out a lot when we are at parties and stuff but we both know its just for convenience for us, we are closer friends than fuck buddies. <33"

Presenting{jenna emily lamont}
To me they are || Much too blind to see the damage he's done||annoyance
So easy to know and forget with this kiss||fling

What they think of me || "Nate? Yeah, he's okay I guess. He's amazing in bed but that's really all he's got going for him, although we have gone for coffee before too. We hang out a lot when I have nothing better to do, but if that boy's been smoking and he comes to me for a good time, he knows he's not gonna get what he wants. I don't do smokers. I can't believe Nate really thinks he's all that. I mean, just because you're head boy and you're good in bed, it doesn't make you a god!"

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Presenting{simon cashel}
To me they are ||
I love your voice and your dance insane||best buddies
OR
I feel afraid and I call your name||partners in crime
AND
there's a flaming red horizon that screams our names||kindred spirits
The pictures go wild in a rush of wind||rivalry
dream asleep in the sand with the ocean washing over||class mate


What they think of me || "Ah, Nate! A man after my own heart! He and I have been pretty good pals for years-- maybe even since our first year. We've always gotten along really well, but as we've grown up we've found ourselves becoming friendly rivals in the realm of the bedroom. While I think it's unfair that he has twice as many oppotunities as I do, since he sleeps with boys too, it's a lot of fun comparing sexual conquests with each other. Yes, I know it's sort of beastly practice, but we're teenage guys, right? Isn't this what we're supposed to talk about?

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Presenting{lewis montague}
To me they are ||
We walked around til the moon got full like a plate||close pals

What they think of me || "I knew him from seeing him around, and from his reputation around school but I hadn't really spoken to him until fourth year. since then we have helped each other out a bit here and there and we cut deals with each other. Plus he is head boy now so I have to respect him don't I? Hahaha, no, I mean I know he was once one of those emo kids and we don't like them much by principle but this guy is alright. He is a good guy"

What I think of them || "Well I have known Lewis by name for a few years having shared a few classes with him here and there. We are both very buisness minded so I suppose we just understand certain things about each other. Now that I am head boy and he is rich kid boss we have more of a professional relationship aswell and we have become rather close. It is one of those 'you scratch my back, I scratch your's sort of relationships"