Confessions of a Hopeless Romantic, Mere's Musings

[Meredith Montoya]

Dear Diary

Well, here I am. Another year, another diary, and this is the first opportunity I've had to write in you - primarily because things have been a huge whirl and bustle of excitement, with the whole planning for back-to-school with Lynx and Gertie and everyone, actually going back to school, and in general getting everything sorted out.

But I have to say I'm glad to be back. Because honestly? I don't want to spend too long without all my friends, I would hate that so much - I missed them all! A lot! You have no idea.

Alright, I know it's kind of corny, but since you're a new diary, you need a name. It's always so much more personal when I can write to someone, instead of to a journal, almost like

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Sorry for vanishing up there....I totally don't remember what I was going to say. I was thinking about it, outside where I'm still sitting now? And I closed my eyes to think. And I was so surprised because all of a sudden? When I opened my eyes? There was this guy - his name is Edward - sitting next to me. And I got so startled, I wasn't expecting to see anyone there at all.

Anyway, I had to figure out what to do, so I excused myself and called Abi - probably not the most polite thing to do but I had no idea what to say to him. So he was just kind of sitting there, watching me, while Abi decided he was gorgeous - I sent her a picture of him - and that he was absolutely head over heels for me, because why else would he have sat down?

So after I got off the phone, I went back over and we started talking - and it was actually really cute - he's quite a sweetheart, we started talking about just random things, and then he said he liked me - and had to clarify that it was not 'that' kind of like - so I guess I won't even try to get my hopes up there.

Before he left, he told me I would make a good muse. Which was, like, wow. No one's ever said that to me before. And no one's ever told me I make music in their heads.

Because yeah. He said that to me too.

And he's gorgeous, seriously, like, hot. And he was so polite and just...wow.

He's an eighth year. In Debussy. And I really hope I run into him again, even though he makes me blush like anything and I don't know what to say around him. It'd still be totally worth it...

And he called me Mere! Like, from the start!

~Mere

[Meredith Montoya]

Dear Diary,

You're still nameless. Oh well, for the moment? There's something far more exciting and influential to discuss than your name. I'm sorry, but you see, Edward Devereux must take priority. He is, after all, Mr. Gorgeous.

Allow me to explain. After I left the courtyard, I ran into Anna, who brought me up to Tyler's room, which was being invaded - probably about seven girls? A lot of us. Were in Tyler's room for an ice cream/welcome back to school party. It was pretty amazing.

Abi wasted no time in making sure everyone knew about Edward and had seen his picture. And they all decided he was gorgeous and that I had a crush on him and that he liked me. I was, at this point, protesting that he wouldn't even remember my name.

Then...well it turns out, he's Edward Devereux, and he's the captain or cocaptain of the football team or something. And he called Anna to ask if they could scrimmage or something - him and Keels and her, except then he heard my voice (Because Anna was a jerk and said he was my boyfriend, loudly, to everyone in the room) and asked where we were.

He recognized my voice...And he didn't forget my name...

Anyway, he came up, and he asked if we could go for a walk or something, and then Keeley pushed me into him, almost. So standing about an inch away from him I was dazed into saying yes.

I'm so glad I did...because he brought me down to the courtyard. In the middle of the night. And he said I was the most beautiful girl in school, and that he likes me. Seriously, he is so amazing. I don't even know what to say.

So now I'm dead tired and excited beyond possible comprehension...is this even normal? I'll think about it more in the morning...

~Mere

PS: I KNEW I WAS TIRED....I forgot to write the MOST important part of ANYTHING...because, you see, he kissed me. On the lips. He KISSED me. Right before I went upstairs....

PPS: I think that's why I'm so 'floaty' today...

[Meredith Montoya]

Dear Delaney,

Well...you have a name now, so....I guess that's better than nothing? Yeah, I know, haven't written for a few days - but I have some very important news - Edward is taking me to see Atonement!!! And then we're going to go to dinner afterwards, and I'm so nervous and yet so excited at the same time...

Honestly. And he kissed me again, we were in the Hall before Gertie and Logan appeared out of nowhere - more about them later? - and he kissed me. And he told me that I distract him. I distract him? I don't even know if me going back to classes is a good thing - there are some serious issues with concentration on my part. I can't focus on anything...

We talked, and he said he's hoping he won't be too distracted when it comes time for him to play football - he said something about tripping over his own feet because he'd be paying attention to me, and then rolling into the goal...

He's so amazing it's not even funny.

I haven't asked about being his muse or what he meant by that - I mean, what if he changed his mind about that? Or what if he changes his mind about me? I really can't help but being paranoid, I've only known him for what, five or six days? Almost a week. And we have our first date coming up really soon, and I'm just...nervous. very nervous.

Edward is...perfect? Does that even work? He knows exactly what to say to me, he's ridiculously sweet. We have phone numbers now, and I have to call him later - just because I had to leave him suddenly - I still feel bad about that - to follow Gertie.

Speaking of Gertie...yeah. I think she's got some serious issues going on for her right now, issues by the name of Logan Holland and a few kisses that meant the world to her - I know they did, even if she won't come right out and admit it....

Gertie and Logan had an interesting conversation, they kissed, and then he tried to leave her or send her away from him or something, and that freaked her out - and now, ever since then? He's been apologizing and trying to get her attention back, or at least get back on her good side.

He's really not doing a very good job of it... She's mad at him for the whole episode in the library, and she's not ready to accept his apology yet. It's very confusing...

In other news, Lynx and I are going to go shopping before my date with Edward, because I have to get a dress or something nice to wear...and then we're going to Borders!!! Is it healthy, how much I love that store?

Ohh - I still have to update Abi with the whole Edward-and-I-having-a-date news...I get the feeling she's going to squeal and attack me and say something along the lines of 'I told you so' but I don't know if I'll mind that much...I mean, I love spending time with Edward, and I hope it turns into a lot more than it is at the moment - is it an infatuation? I'm actually quite positive it's turned into the biggest crush in the history of creation...

I mean, you can see here, I can't even go ten minutes without talking about him, it's ridiculous how obsessed I am...I put his number on my speeddial list - and I have his picture but I'm going to have to take one where he actually realizes I'm taking it... and I just can't get over the amazingness of this entire thing....seriously. Who would ever have expected that this would happen? So randomly?

We just happened to meet one day, and we just happened to get along and we both liked each other...and now, he's told me straight out that he fully intends to change my relationship status from 'single' to 'taken' and I can't even think straight around him...

Is it possible to be this happy?

Do I sound ridiculous and mushy?

Yeah...I'm going to read this later and go "What was I on?"

~Mere