> Vent here

[sleeping beauty]

I would have to find out why he was fired somehow. Even if I had to call his house. You have a right to know!

[Toph4er]

Ok, I'm ticked at myself. I was recoloring the old /narcolepsy page to go gray and red to match this (because I like that template more tbh than the new /pwn one)...I was at least 3/4 of the way done and stupidly closed photoshop without saving ANY of the work...its not hard, but it is time consuming, I've been working over an hour!!!



STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!!

*EDIT*

So I redid it only to see that it was hideous , even a bigger waste of time! Now I can't get a file to upload to fix some typos on the home page

[Toph4er]

ARG! I have been so sleepy the past few weeks. I slept all weekend last weekend, and though I didn't think it was possible, I slept even more this weekend...I have zero energy...I've tried doubling my Provigil to little effect, I still can't sleep at night, and making it through class is so hard!

And on top of that, Kyle Busch recklessly, and in my opinion purposely, wrecked Dale Earnhardt Jr. at Richmond last night. He didn't get "loose". If he was loose why did his car keep going up the track? After he hit Jr. a loose car would have fishtailed, and besides that his wheels were turned up before he wobbled. I've always been disgusted with Kyle, and his actions only make me dislike him more! GTFO of nascar!!!

Chris"Toph4er"

[marjanice]

right on ! marlene

[Mouse]

Why can't meds just keep working. I have three months with out a major event, so my doc says don't come back for three months, next thing I know I'm falling apart again. My Ritilan's not waking me up and I'm having some C again, and I loath the thought of increasing my xyrem, because of the side effects, and the expense. All I want is some sort of norm. Just to be able to know what to expext, but every time things seem stable I discover they are not. It just stinks!

[sam.toombs]

So,

i know i have been away from this board for a while - i know you all miss me so i came back with a story to tell which is only appropriately told in this thread seen as my anger might cause me to swear **praises the filter**

A wrote a thread about the Lumbar puncture i had and a couple of other hospital visits that i have had recently - all painful and fairly unnecessary, i feel.

During all this i had the good fortune to watch my grandmother get more and more ill and she died. Her funeral was on Thursday and needless to say i'm a bit cut up about it.

I've been napping more than is currently normal for me and i have been tired and not wanting to do much - could just be depression or a mixture of that and N but i have been moody and a bit snappy.

i told my partner to stay away till i got things resolved, he rang me last night and i asked him why he thought i had been moody and he had no idea why i asked him again and he said 'i dunno ... PMT?' i swear to god i almost screamed at him then and there - i said do you not think my grandmothers death might have affected me and then he said:

'oh your not going to go on about your Gran are you?'
me: 'what'
him: 'look if its bothering you i don't see why your taking it out on me ...

i hung up

what the *bad word*?! I'm meant to just get over it in a flash and get back to normality straight away - he was complaining that i couldn't go to the shops with him the other day because i was too tired but the day after i could. Where the hell did this come from - when did he suddenly not get what N is

what *bad word* happened??

why should i have to get over her death so quickly? it hurts!

[alwyzthis]

You know what really grinds my gears? *peter griffin voice*
IT grinds my gears when people insist on saying that I fall asleep on purpose. I mean what kind of ignorance are you to think that I pick and choose the places that fit in. I mean I don't think someone would insist on falling asleep almost every min. and pop pills like Im already grown. Its ignorance like that makes the black girls in me emerge and tell people off.

ARGGGHH! -__-

[dracozny]

I hear you there, my ex wife insisted it was all in my head.

[Iceman0810]

I'm about to snap/cry/punch things/walk out of my office cause of my coworker (who I thought was my friend). I was diagnosed in March and started Nuvigil and more recently adderall to keep my sleep attacks under control. I already had memory problems and problems being to work on time before all of this. Now, while I am still trying to get my dosages right, which is a whole other vent session, I am late, unmotivated, forgetfull, and get agitated from time to time. I walk into my office this morning and missed PT at the gym (I'm an Army Recruiter by the way). I was running late so I just went straight to the office and started working. He comes in and asks why I wasnt at the gym. I asked if we really need to go through this again and he wouldn't stop. I told him exactly what happened. I woke up at 6 am and got ready to go to the gym. I was ready by 615 and didnt need to be to the gym until 7 so I decided to lie down with my girlfriend for 15 more minutes. I had an alarm set for 630 and so did she. Well neither woke me up. I woke up at 707 am and hurried to my car to try and make it to the gym by 730. Got down the road and realized i forgot all 3 of my meds at home. I obviously cant go with out them so I turned around, got my meds, and went straight to the office. He says "I don't by it" and "You're just lazy and undisciplined" and implied that I am making it all up. I wanted to hit him. He is technically superior to me because he is an E6 and i am an E5 but we are both Detailed Recruiters and he has no accountability of me so by position we are peers. I wanted to go off on him and start yelling and punch/kick the crap out of him. This is bullshit. I try my hardest to make it on time. Any chance I get to make up time from being late I do. The last few days I have been having really bad hallucinations falling asleep and waking up and I'm starting to lose touch with reality more often than usuall. Im stressed the eff out about more than just being late. I just got divorced last week (I have a 2 y/o son btw), Im going to be discharged from the Army, and I am behind on some of my bills that I desperatly need to catch up on. I talked to my team leader and he said he would talk to my coworker. I have never used my Narcolepsy as an excuse to get out of work. I take responsibility for my actions. I do things such as drive when I dont feel comfortable with it so that we get things done. I shouldnt have to live with ridicule as well. I think im going to go to my car and cry. BBFN