Going down the rabbit hole..., Kaden's Thoughts

[Kaden Matrix]

As I have come to live here I can't help but grow attach to this place. Well maybe not the place so much as the other's I have met. It was my main job that has sent me here. In meeting my work partner Artemis I felt more at home by his side than anywhere in the past few years. After a few months though my comfort was broken and I found myself on shakey ground again. Perhaps I saw him like me and thought we could help eachother. No he was too hurt and broken for me to help. Besides after talking with Tobias his claimed boyfriend I realized I am fine by it.

After dealing and grieving with that mess and leaving my job on the police force I do feel a freedom. Then again I have a loss of direction. In both what I should be doing and how to follow my heart. Oddly enough though I have seemed to have found family, in a sence. So the ground has stopped shaking but it is hard and cold.

There is a warmth. It seems both close and distant. Almost teasing. Could he really be trying to help me? Pompeii seems genuine enough but perhaps I am being too hopeful. Least the club is inviting then again there starts my past troubles. Such a cycle... when will it stop?

[Kaden Matrix]

Sighing Kaden plops down on the sofa. Ok so Tobias was comming strongly onto him. Claiming it was love and that he cared. Kaden wasn't sure what to do. He knew Tobias and Artemis cared about him but he felt odd about being in a relationship like that. With a heavy sigh his thought turned to Pompeii.

He loved the man cause they were so a like and had tons in common. Little needed to be said or expalined. Then again he didn't like him with Tobias. Was it a trust factor? He should know and understand his needs were the same as his own, right? He understood that they couldn't just do it, for it wouldn't mean much. He liked taking time but his body ached to be close to someone. Groaning he rubbed his head and sighed.

Not to mention he seemed to have to go to Pompeii when Tobias always seemed to be there when he needed someone. So confused and torn Kaden passed out on the couch after a late or early morning/night at work.

[Kaden Matrix]

My friends seem to be busy as of late. Sa is usually around to talk to though. Then again I have grown closer to Pompeii. Perhaps living together has helped. He must trust and feel something if he answers my calls. So why don't others trust him?

I know and understand Tobias and Artemis care about me but personally three is a crowd, even among close friends. So while my heart is content my mind swims.